The Patanjali study group that I’m leading on Saturday afternoons has created some perturbation among the students, that is… stirring people up, including me.
We’re looking at the niyama, particularly the concepts of discipline and self-study.
That brought me to ponder this quote from Pema Chodran:
What we are disciplining is any form of escape from reality.
You get the idea – you can run but you cannot hide.
Today I think I revealed to myself another way that I sabotage myself which relates to my self-esteem.
For a long while, I’ve been telling myself that I’m disorganised and unproductive because my desk looks like an archeological dig which is still growing in volume. By the end of the day, I’m of the opinion that I didn’t really accomplish anything much.
So, I decided to do a reality check and keep track of what I did achieve by 6:30 pm in the evening. Here’s the list I came up with, which is pretty awesome:
- Mindfulness meditation (20 minutes)
- Asana and Pranayama practice (1.5 hours)
- Taught a class (1.5 hours)
- Called U.S. to support my sister (45 minutes)
- Looked after emails and social media curating (30 minutes)
- Planted 14 gymea lilies, with the help of other housemates, and re-potted other plants (1.5 hours)
- Did restorative practice (40 minutes)
- Washed and hung out a load of laundry
- Posted on my blog (45 minutes)