I don’t know how you’re travelling these days, but I’m still feeling buffeted by the news from Japan. Do you wonder sometimes how the world is going to make it through with so many things going wrong? I do.
Moreover, recently I’ve had some feelings of grief about my family come to the surface. Maybe they were precipitated by my mother-in-law’s recent death, possibly by the tragedies in Japan, Christchurch, Queensland.
I feel okay about being sad. I’ve been watching my mind come up with a lot of…what? It can only be called crap. “What’s wrong with me?”- might be one line of attack. “I should do something about this” – another one. Or just, “Oh, no!”
All of these amount to resistance to letting the feelings wash. Cleansing feelings, softening feelings. I know there’s the potential for resolution, redemption, forgiveness, amidst all the discomfort.
I wonder if I have some useful tools from yoga practice. I think I do. Opening my awareness to all there is. Doing tree pose…feeling the feet, legs, hips, abdomen, chest, arms, neck and head. Feeling inside the body. Noticing the content of the mind, the mood, the breathing. Then, staying present and going through all of the check-in again.
One of my favourite quotes describes what I’ve been going through this week:
Nothing changes until it becomes what it is. To know yourself you must know your own weaknesses; then, they are no longer weaknesses. They become a peculiar form of inner strength. Because you are conscious of what your weaknesses are, you need not fight their existence. They become a powerful place to stand – open and free of confusion and doubt. – Fritz Perls
I like that…a peculiar place to stand, but nevertheless….still standing.